Just a thought

Today I pose to you this thought,

"Music is both a gift and a curse."

It's something that I have considered recently. Ok, so you may be entirely confused as to why and how I came up with this, but hear me out first.

To me, music is something painful and wonderful all at once. It has the power to make me feel ecstatic, lost in my own world when I perform; but it also is the greatest source of pressure in my life. Without music, I don't have much left. I'm not exactly a genius in the academic department so... what I'm trying to say is that I've relied on music to make good impressions throughout most of my life.

There have been many times when I wanted to stop it all because of the struggle to increase my standards as a performer. In fact recently, I came this close to giving up entirely.

But... I didn't.

Instead, I realised that I can never stop performing. It's something that I can't ignore or push away. It is a part of me. If I did, I know it would haunt me forever.

This is why I say music is both a gift and a curse. For me, at least.

lysh xx